Feeling really guilty....

So today I get a post on the bulletin board on Myspace that gave a link to a "extreme sex quiz". So I take the quiz and the average result is like 33% my result, are you ready for this....believe it or not 75.95%!! That is bad! Bad Bad Bad!

So then Josh was like here take the purity test, it's only 100 questions and it'll show you how pure you are. I got a 17% only 17% pure dammit!!

I feel so bad.

I need new shoes. I know that was totally random....but I do. They are old sandals that I have worn so much that they are starting to smell.

I need to get back to beading....next week is the craft show I am going to *hopefully* be selling at. *yippie*

~incoming call~ brb

more random quiz results

Your a distant wolf! Is that why you howl?


What kind of wolf are you?
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EARTH: You are the fairy of the earth. You are
kind, gentle, outgoing, and love everything
about nature. Nothing intimidates you and you
always help those in need of rescue. Beautiful,
kind, and motherly.


What kind of Fairy are you? (GIRLS ONLY, pictures)
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Aquarius
Symbol: The Water Bearer
Ruling Planet: Uranus/ Saturn
Element: Air
Cross/Quality: Fixed
Group: Theoretical
House Ruled: Eleventh
Polarity: Positive
Opposite Sign: Leo
Favorable Colors: Electric Blue
& Glow-in-the-Dark Shades
Lucky Gem: Amethyst

Progressive, original, idealist, altruistic,
issue-oriented, charismatic, up-to-date,
visionary, humanitarian, personable,
imaginative, generous, inspiring, practical,
congenial, casual, open-minded, amiable,
inventive, off-beat, but can be rebellious,
eccentric, thoughtlessness, contrarian,
childish, aloof, uninvolved, obstinate,
antisocial, unconventional, impressionable

If this sounds like you rate HIGH!!


What does your astrology sign say about you?
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Dreams: you get so lost in fantasy and daydreaming,
that you lose touch with reality. All unreal
things consume you and take all you want away.
You begin to see the flawless as the flawed,
and begin to see the real as unreal. On the
good side, you are very creative and have a
quick mind.

Your song: "Sweet Dreams" -Marilynn
Manson
Your sign: A black cloud
Your color: Pink


What is your connection with darkness? (with pictures)
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You are Fall time, the season of changes. Sometimes
you let me people walk all over you like a
doormat. You are quiet, smart, caring, and true
to yourself. You are artistic and more mature
than others your age, you know your limits on
everything and don't take big risks. You don't
like for people to judge by your actions.

Your color: Yellow or purple
Your sign: a dead tree


What season are you?(with awesome fairy pictures!!)(Girls)
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YOU ARE A LEADER!
Comander, in charge, the wolf! you are the one
responsible for your accomplises lives, and
gard them well!. Congrats!


What type of wolf are you?(wolf pics XP)
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Too amused.....

This page is so much fun....
that or I am very easily amused..... (I have a dirty dirty mind)

http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi?

go there type in your name, a co-workers, your lover's, anybody's name...its fun it's interesting....here are some results from me and my wandering mind

(I swear all of these are real results! Heck you might even get one like it)

4 out of 5 Dentists Recommend Travis
A Taste for Travis
Exceedingly Good Travis
Happiness is a Cigar Named Travis
Where's The Travis?

There's Always Room For Courtney
Splash Courtney All Over
Thank Courtney It's Friday
A Courtney Is Forever
There's No Wrong Why To Eat A Courtney
Let The Courtney Begin
Just One Courtney- Give It To Me!
Welcome To Courtney Country
All You Need Is A Courtney And A Dream
Stimulation For Body And Courtney
Exceedingly Good Courtney
Have A Break. Have A Courtney
So Easy, No Wonder Courtney Is #1
What Can Courtney Do For You?
How Do You Eat Your Courtney?

It Does Exactly What It Says On The Kat
3-in-1 Protection For Your Kat
Super Kat Is Almost Here
A Kat Works Wonders
There Is Only One Kat
The Kat That Likes To Say Yes

Tense, Nervous, Keith?
It's Shake n' Keith, And I Helped!
I Feel Like Keith Tonight (that one is directed towards Kat btw)

Any Time, Any Place, Carin
Happiness is Carin-shaped

You Like Josh. Josh Likes You.
Josh Keeps Going and Going
It's Not TV. It's Josh
A Josh A Day Helps You Work, Rest And Play
Big Chocolate Josh

I'd Like To Buy The World A Jerry (Kat: "I wouldn't.")
It's Different in a Jerry (Kat: "That is so true.")
Life's Pretty Straight Without Jerry (Everyone but Jerry: Laughing our asses off!)

Random kinda day

I'm on a Oh My Gods kick




You are a cat demon.You are lazy and sleeps
alot.You love having attention and you will do
anything to have it.You are cute and everyone
thinks so ^_^


What Type Of Demon Are You?
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You are a water angel! Very proud and powerful you
always make people feel great about themselves
and you seem to radiate happiness! You rock!


Which astounding angel are you? (awe-inspiring pics!)
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I'm going home now

All Hail the Mighty Pokemon

It's a pokemon kinda day....hehehe

Just 30 more minutes of work.

A Survey about myself.....

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Courtney Merrill
Birthday:	01/30/1981
Birthplace:	Flordia
Current Location:	North Carolina
Eye Color:	Brown
Hair Color:	Black brown
Height:	5'3
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	Scott-Irish and German
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Mudd Sandals
Your Weakness:	Musicians
Your Fears:	Being Totally Alone
Your Perfect Pizza:	Lots of Sauce, pepperoni and onions
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Keep my house clean all the time
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	Brb
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Crap what time is it?
Your Best Physical Feature:	Legs (from the knee down)
Your Bedtime:	between 8:30 and 9 am
Your Most Missed Memory:	5 acres of land to play on
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi
McDonalds or Burger King:	McDonalds
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton Ice Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	No
Do you Swear:	Yes
Do you Sing:	Yes
Do you Shower Daily:	Yes
Have you Been in Love:	Yes
Do you want to go to College:	Yes
Do you want to get Married:	Yes
Do you belive in yourself:	*shrug*
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive:	Yes
Are you a Health Freak:	No
Do you get along with your Parents:	Now I do
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Love them
Do you play an Instrument:	No
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	No
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	No
In the past month have you been on Stage:	No, but I wish I had
In the past month have you been Dumped:	No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Yes
Ever been Drunk:	Yes
Ever been called a Tease:	Yes
Ever been Beaten up:	Yes
Ever Shoplifted:	Yes
How do you want to Die:	quietly in my sleep or sqrewing someone
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	um....a unicorn trainer ;)
What country would you most like to Visit:	Ireland
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Green
Favourite Hair Color:	Brown
Short or Long Hair:	Short
Height:	5'10
Weight:	170-200
Best Clothing Style:	Comfortable
Number of Drugs I have taken:	Just pot
Number of CDs I own:	Tons
Number of Piercings:	A few
Number of Tattoos:	A few
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	Nothing, except every other girl than me!
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Oh what a long day....

So today (or rather yesterday) I was sleeping peacefully in my bed...I heard my cell phone ring and I thought...
"NO! I am sleeping"
then it rang again... "Dammit!"
It was my mother and father who called to wake me up 5 hours after I went to sleep and I have to work 3rd tonight. *sigh*

They want Travis and me to go with them and my grandma *rolls eyes* to lunch. So we get up and go...
My grandmother is crazy, btw! So that lunch was REAL fun! *I hope my sarcasim is apparent*

Then as soon as we get home Travis' mom wants us to move her stuff from our house. Well it's about darn time.
So all day (2pm-8pm) we are moving chests, beds, mattresses, stuff, boxes. *sigh*

My whole body hurts.
I am tired, very very tired.

Thank goodness it is Sunday and I can do the whole rest my eyes during the update. That, and as bad as it sounds, Travis won't be home when I get there...I can just sleep. *sigh*
Thank goodness for day shift sometimes.

here is something pretty!

News Flash!

I just want everyone to know that I can't leave well enough alone, I mean I'll make a post and like 5 minutes later what to add something or change something.

So now I wanna add something.

But crap if I didn't forget what it was.....

Oh yeah....I need a good picture to out balance the cute baby....
um....something good....

This is the car I will never get if I have a baby now....
and this is the car even if I get....and have a baby...I would NEVER sell....
I'd sell my kidneys, blood and ovaries first!

Ah....crap it's baby fix time.

Okay so today I was driving down the road and thinking....

"I miss being around babies all the time."

I used to work at a preschool and got my baby fix all the time. Got to hold newborns and play with the little ones everyday. Then doubletime on Wednesdays and on Sunday mornings. That was until David caused me to quit that posh job at the preschool, which in turn lead me to be fired from the nursery when we were divorcing.
*sigh*
I miss the kids...
I miss baby Catherine, Kaela, baby Russell, Brookie, Luke, and Kathryn.

They were my babies if only for a time...
I miss them.

Random cute baby


*sigh*
So anyways, I am driving home and I start to cry....I miss children.
I miss children so much that now....
I want one.
And I like want one, now.

So this morning I am going to sit down with Travis and let him know.
*big sigh*
This isn't gonna be easy.....

Me: "Goodmorning honey! Guess what? I want to try to have a baby, I want to start, um..... now."

Travis: *shocked stare*

Me: Yeah, I know we aren't even married yet....but I'm almost 25 and I think I am ready. I want one I really do."

*but then again...... No more romantic getaways....
No more amusement parks with really fast rollercoaster rides......
No more quiet nights with good sleep.........
No more quiet.....*

Gosh sometimes I really enjoy my online blog. I get to vent and write things out and think things out. Cause now....I don't think it's a good idea. Not yet anyways.
I mean in theory it sounds like fun, but um...no.

I needed to find out about some hotels in Charleston Beach....brb.

I gotta go now.

Cherry Poptarts and Green Tea

Yep....
That is what I am eating right now....and not feeling so hot. Dang it, I am hungry and not just a little, I mean really hungry. I don't want anything from the wheel of death.

I miss Travis.

I wanna go home and I want him to come home so we can be together.

I wanna see more of Desperate Housewives....it's really got my attention now.

*sigh* Soon.

It's almost lunchtime...which means I get to see Aquateen Hunger Force. *hehehe*

Maybe I should do some more random quizzes?
Okay sounds good.


You are Rikku:

You're cute silly and hyper.


What's anime cutie are you?
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Dreams are most important to you. You are generally
quiet in nature, but you have big plans for
your life! You try to be kind to everyone you
come in contact with, even if you don't have
the right words to say.


What's important to you? ~~Beautiful Anime Pictures~~
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You are Autumn. You love all the beautiful colors
and animals around you every year. Personality:
You don't let other people get to you. What's
said is said, meaning that you're pretty
laid-back. You are very friendly and easy to
talk to, making you a good friend. You don't
want TOO many friends, but the ones that you
have are very close.


What's The Season That Best Fits You???*Girls Only!* Anime Pics!
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your angel is a beautiful lady, watching you
wherever you go. she leaves you space, but
you'll always know she's there.


what's your angel?(beautiful pics)(IMPROVED!!)
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Your a suprise kiss. Woah, didn't see that coming
did ya? You aren't really expecting something
so big yet, but it came!


What's your anime kiss? (INCREDIBLE ANIME PICTURES!)
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You're a Winged Creature. You can be both bad or
good, black or white, traditional or modern.
You demonstrate beautifully the fact that most
of the time, there is no black and white, but
only shades of grey. You are the ultimate
oxymoron.


What's your creature----anime style?
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I don't agree with the little message with the result of this quiz, but I liked the picture I got...very neat.


You are an Angel of Darkness! You are an evil,
sorrowful angel. You love to see battle and
innocent blood being spilt. What made you this
way, only you know, for the secret is down
inside in your heart...of what happened the day
your life changed forever...


What's your element? (Girls only, Anime pictures)
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You lucky girl - you're destined to be LOST with
Sawyer! Sawyer is known as a sarcastic lone
wolf who stays to himself and always has
something clever to say. Although he seems to
be tough as nails on the outside, it's certain
that you'll find a big, ol' softie on the
inside. Plus, he's very sexy. Your future with
Sawyer: You two will meet on the inside of the
plane while he's looting and you're searching
for your cell phone. He'll greet you by saying,
"Hey, there, good looking!" and you
will chat about your favorite movies, bands,
and foods. Sawyer doesn't talk much about his
family or where he came from, but he shows he's
attracted to you by his sly smile. The two of
you are often seen lounging around, just
talking, while Kate gives you sideways glances
(jealous, much?). Even though, you and Sawyer
like each other very much, he swears he'll
never commit and declares your relationship as
being "open." Soon Sawyer will sail
off with Jin, Michael, and Walt, and he'll get
shot by the Others. However, he'll survive and
make it back to the beach with Jin and Michael
(poor Walt gets taken by the Others). You help
to take care of him, and he realizes how much
he loves you. Sawyer finally spills about his
life story, but eventually, he grows bored and
decides to just remain friends....with
benefits.


What's Your Future With the Men of "LOST"? (Long results and pics!)
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Your a magical unicorn! As all unicorns go, magic
unicorns are amazing with enchantments and can
perform spells and all kind of crafts. Magic
Unicorns have horns that if drank from can cure
blindness, and give immortality. All magical
unicorns are very kind and heart-warming, but
can get tempermental if a spell goes wrong.
Magical Unicorns live in forests where they can
practise all there magic in secret. But, if a
human befreinds a magical unicorn, they have a
friend for life.


What kind of Unicorn are you? (With beautiful pictures)
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your a black unicorn!


what color unicorn are you?
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Okay well.....

I've gone to lunch and back....I've made two bracelets and taken some very random quizzes.

And now it is update time!
YIPPIE!!

and i gotta pee......................................

*YAWN*.......

I wish I had those cute little emoticons on here....the little bouncy kitty ones are my favorite. I could use them if I was still with livejournal, but for some reason blogger is just more my style.

I am so tired. I wish I could go home.
Chicken and Stars in a cup for dinner....yum.

I'm so tired I'm shaky.....I might have to have Travis come get me in the morning. I don't know if I can stay awake....it's been a long time since I've been this tired at work.

I might just fall asleep here at my desk. *yawn*

I've posted too much today....I should just let it go for the night...day whatever.

I want to sleep............

I was up since 11am this morning.......That means I have been awake for 15hours so far and I'll be up till at least 7am this morning.

I'm going to try to occupy myself with myspace comments and random surfing sites....maybe I'll take a nap after lunch....

(Leaned back in chair, legs propped up on desk in cubicle)
Phone System: "Incoming call"
Me: "What? What???"
(Falling out of chair...and accidentally hanging up on customer.)

HAHAHAHAHA!!

Goodnight Vampires!

Naughty My Little Pony

You Are Subversion!
You are systematic and secretive. Sometimes even very calculating. Most everyone trusts you but they have no idea what really goes on in your head. You are capable of being nice or mean, whatever a situation calls for. You look out for #1.

What Naughty My Little Pony Are You?

You Are Absinthe!
You have a unique personality. Although most like you, sometimes you take some getting used to. You can be a bit strong. You are full of energy and sometimes flamboyant. You are the life of the party but if people are not careful you can knock them on their ass.

What Naughty My Little Pony Are You?

You Are Opium!
You like to have fun and enjoy life. Reeeeeally enjoy life. If it isn't fast, loud, or extreme forget it. You value friendship and are loyal and will not hesiste to go off if someone crosses you.

What Naughty My Little Pony Are You?


Which My Little Pony are you?
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You are FIREFLY! An adventuerous little pony with a
"Take no crap" additude. You
trademark move is the double inside out loop,
and your just an all around awesome little
pony!


What old skool my little pony are you?
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Congratulations/condolences, you're My Little Pony!


What Child of the Eighties Are You?
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This goes out to all my ex's......

"Addicted"


I heard you're doing okay
But I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy but you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you

So.....umm well....yeah.....*yucky feelings*

As some of you know (maybe....Brittany does at least) I have an ex named Jason that broke my heart back in High School, not the only one, but one of the biggest. In fact not only did he talk me out of going to the prom (BOTH YEARS) but he dumped me soon after I missed my senior prom, via AOL instant messenger.

So since Blondie dear hasn't seen this and I think everyone should..this is Jason at his wedding to his new wife Heather.

BTW I absolutely hold no grudges....I mean I look at her and I think, gee she's perfect for him.



But.....
Sometimes a girl's gotta vent......
WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH DUMPING ME ON AIM???

much better ^.^~ *purrrrrrrrrr*

And now onto something else.....

I also dated George he dumped me once around Christmas and later one summer we just kind had this fling....yah know....he didn't wanna go to college a virgin.

Then he gets to college and he stops calling me or talking to me, which is okay, yeah he must be busy. Then he comes home and still nothing, graduates and still nothing. Finally I track him down, ya know just to catch up....congrad the grad.
I find his webpage and e-mail him....nothing.....
I IM him, nothing......
I call him, nothing.....
BASTARD!!!

I find out he's married...I'm happy for him too....(Hell, I am marrying Travis, They have someone else to drive insane not me anymore.)

This is him and his wife. They are perfect for each other, she's just as much of an activist as him. They protest Bush and goverment all the time. I couldn't keep up with that....glad she can. They are cute together.


But again I gotta vent....
WHY DIDN'T YOU EVER CALL ME AGAIN YOU BASTARD?
I JUST WANTED TO CONGRADULATE YOU ON YOUR MARRIAGE!

much better...... ^.^~ *purrrr*

You know what will make me feel much Much MUCH better???





That and yesterday was Travis and my 1 year anniversary. We've been back together for a whole year. We went to Carowinds Saturday and rode some rides, shopped in the Concord Mills mall. Then Sunday we hung out all day, just having fun and watching movies. We ate dinner at Longhorn Steakhouse, and he came to see me on my breaks at work.

Actually I get off work here in about an hour.

*Sigh* Thank goodness. I love working nights but tonight was rough I am so tired. I am gonna sleep good this morning.

I'll go home and crash I am sure of that.

Good Morning all you Daywalkers......
Good Night all you Vampires..... *like me*



:[

Feeling Rosy....

I'm feeling much better since my last blog....
that is of course after a night in the ER, a week and 1/2 of nasty Kefelx (antibiotic) being spoiled rotten by my honey.... "Thank you baby"

Oh don't panic kiddies....the ER visit was just....
TERRIBLE!

I had and absess on my stomache....sounds just like it felt! I could barely walk it hurt so bad. I thought I'd go in he'd look at it and give me an antibiotic, some pain med and tell me to go home and rest! HA!

No....he cut me open. Not big, but he did have to numb the area, take a small scaple and cut into me and drain all the bad stuff out of me. *Yucky*

Then I got to get waited on hand and foot for about a week....it was nice, but now I'm pretty healed up and doing stuff on my own.

I'm feeling a little depressed though, I think it is the meds....it's like a linering sadness deep inside....my sunny side is shining but inside it's very dark today. I think it's nothing my yellow blankie, some cookiedough, my mickey mouse, and Princess Bride, Legend and Labyrinth, can't fix.

I'll go home, put on my carebear pj's (my sexy panties underneath for fun), grab my yellow blankie, my mickey, pop in Princess Bride get some cold cookiedough and a gingerale, curl up on the sofa and watch it till I fall asleep.....

That sounds divine!

Pretty Picture time....

Kill me....

Tonight Travis went to see his mom to finally find out what's going on and what we need to do...

Damn all that did was turn out to just advance the bad news....

Apparently, (and this is verbatum from what Travis told me) "Well....we are eloping and moving out."

If that doesn't help you understand why I wanna die I don't know what does.
These are the bits of info I got from him:

1. She doesn't trust me...she says it's a gut feeling (me: crushed)
2. She cannot live next door to him and me.
3. She won't come to our wedding.
4. She doesn't think (when we have children) that we should give them a choice at high school to pick public or private school.
5. She thinks he is making a bad decision marrying me.

*cry*
I have to stop typing now....
I have to be able to finish work at least....
I need the money and if I leave early...I would have worked overtime for nothing yesterday.

*cry*

*cry*

*cry*

I was gonna post the funniest Oh My Gods ever....so here it is...hope it cheers you up....Since I heard the news nothing has cheered me up....

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